Thursday, May 05, 2005


Fuck. Fuck. Fuckity-fuck fuck FUCK fuck.

I weigh more than I ever have in my life. My clothes fit a bit tighter, I don't feel as energetic as I used to, and the thought of it is leaving me in a serious blue funk. The solution itself is simple: Eat less, move more. It's the actual doing it that will be the hard part. I know I can do it; all I need to do now is believe myself more than I do now. I need to leave behind my destructive behavior, including staying with my folks- being that far out in the boondocks, living with overbearing people, is destroying me physically and mentally. If you know me, please help me on this in any way that you can. I'll appreciate it more than you know. Thank you.